I don't know how many people actually read this blog. I've been absent, and I apologize. I've been having some health issues. More specifically, my heart. No one seems to know what the deal is. My hormones are normal, my heart enzymes are really good, there are no clots and no fluids. My EKG came back normal. My heart rate seems to want to stay high, I even had an episode of supraventricular tachycardia that landed me in the ER. Currently, I'm wearing a heart monitor.
I will want those who read this blog to be able to continue my journey with me. I'll be moving to a different site, and while I am still going to lose weight, it's not my main focus. Being healthy is. Getting my heart back to normal is. If normal is even possible anymore. Anyway, it's good to make a change sometimes. Being obsessed with food and the scale and calories and all that stuff isn't good for me. It never gets me anywhere but back at the starting line. So while my new blog home won't be about an obsession with losing weight that this blog has been, it will be the break I need. Hopefully you can find a place there with me, and get a break from whatever it is you are struggling with - if there is anything. It's not setup yet, but will be sometime this weekend. Monday I'll start with a 60 day photo challenge. Should be fun!
Here is my new blog space: http://somniumsemper.blogspot.com
It's not anonymous, either. I have no reason to hide, so hide I won't do any longer.
I hope to see you all there!
Friday, June 21, 2013
Monday, May 27, 2013
day one
Well, this is it. Day one of my gluten free vegan diet. I feel like shit, but not because of what I'm eating. My stomach has been bothering me all night. I'm dreading the withdrawals from sugar and caffeine. My, I can just see it now. I'm determined to pull through, though. I have to. I need this change, to be truly healthy.
So far today I have learned that I can't eat broccoli raw if it's plain. In fact, I can only eat celery and carrots raw and plain. This is going to make lunch times interesting, and I'll have to get more creative with ideas.
I've decided to give tofu a whirl. I needed something extra, something I could cook up with veggies for dinner. If I get bored, I'm bound to quit. I made sure it was organic, gmo and gluten free. I also bought sauce to cook with that is organic and gluten free. Oh, and extra virgin olive oil. Good grief that stuff is expensive! It better last me a while.
So really nothing exciting to share today. I'm going to eat my orange to finish up lunch and then get started on the dishes. I was hoping to have today to do nothing all day, but that's not how it turned out. Oh well. Better luck next weekend!
Hope you all have a wonderful Memorial Day, and Thank You to all those who have and are serving!
So far today I have learned that I can't eat broccoli raw if it's plain. In fact, I can only eat celery and carrots raw and plain. This is going to make lunch times interesting, and I'll have to get more creative with ideas.
I've decided to give tofu a whirl. I needed something extra, something I could cook up with veggies for dinner. If I get bored, I'm bound to quit. I made sure it was organic, gmo and gluten free. I also bought sauce to cook with that is organic and gluten free. Oh, and extra virgin olive oil. Good grief that stuff is expensive! It better last me a while.
So really nothing exciting to share today. I'm going to eat my orange to finish up lunch and then get started on the dishes. I was hoping to have today to do nothing all day, but that's not how it turned out. Oh well. Better luck next weekend!
Hope you all have a wonderful Memorial Day, and Thank You to all those who have and are serving!
Sunday, May 19, 2013
My KP
Today has been a long but good one! One of my besties oldest son graduated from high school today. He's like a little brother to me and I couldn't have been more proud! Next year will be his little brother's turn to graduate. I can't believe they are all grown up! Gah! Why can't kids stay little forever? Tomorrow (now today) is my oldest niece's 8th grade promotion and then Thursday is my youngest niece's graduation from Pre-K. Quite the week for this proud girl! So happy for my fam :)
With the celebration today brought food. Unfortunately, a lot of food. I noticed as the day went on my KP (Keratosis Pilaris) started to get worse. What did I eat a lot of? Meat. I read an interesting article from a nutrition specialist slash life coach, Gabrielle Brick, who used to have KP and because it has to do with protein, it's something we should stay away from. That and dairy. I seem to have come to my breaking point today. My husband and I have already shopped for the week, but this coming Friday I will officially be on my new diet.
Only, this won't be a diet. It will be a lifestyle change, because I can't keep eating the things I'm eating. There are some downsides, like the limitations to what I can consume, but aside from having clear skin (fingers and piggies crossed!) I will also be extremely healthy! That is always a plus.
Here are my restrictions: Gluten/Wheat - Dairy - Meat. I can have fruits, vegetables, spices, some sauces, beans, nuts, legumes and seeds. So my plan is to create two meal plans. One for my husband, and one for myself. The ideal situation would be to only have to worry about myself, but I don't feel that my husband should have to suffer. Although, I will be cooking clean foods for him - all organic and fresh. So his foods will change as well. I'll also eliminate red meat for him, as it's the worst of the meats.
Anyway. . .I'm finding at the moment that my biggest obstacle will be finding different recipes or finding new ways to re-invent current recipes to suit my new lifestyle. I'll post them on here as I go, that way if you all feel like trying something new or jumping on the healthy bandwagon you can do so!
I know I've wanted to try the Gluten and Dairy free way of eating before, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. Now, I can't bring myself not to. I just can't. I'm unhappy, unhealthy and something has to change. Nothing can change, though, if I don't change myself. I have less than a week to prepare, and I'm going to make the most of it.
What is something you would like to change for an overall better you?
With the celebration today brought food. Unfortunately, a lot of food. I noticed as the day went on my KP (Keratosis Pilaris) started to get worse. What did I eat a lot of? Meat. I read an interesting article from a nutrition specialist slash life coach, Gabrielle Brick, who used to have KP and because it has to do with protein, it's something we should stay away from. That and dairy. I seem to have come to my breaking point today. My husband and I have already shopped for the week, but this coming Friday I will officially be on my new diet.
Only, this won't be a diet. It will be a lifestyle change, because I can't keep eating the things I'm eating. There are some downsides, like the limitations to what I can consume, but aside from having clear skin (fingers and piggies crossed!) I will also be extremely healthy! That is always a plus.
Here are my restrictions: Gluten/Wheat - Dairy - Meat. I can have fruits, vegetables, spices, some sauces, beans, nuts, legumes and seeds. So my plan is to create two meal plans. One for my husband, and one for myself. The ideal situation would be to only have to worry about myself, but I don't feel that my husband should have to suffer. Although, I will be cooking clean foods for him - all organic and fresh. So his foods will change as well. I'll also eliminate red meat for him, as it's the worst of the meats.
Anyway. . .I'm finding at the moment that my biggest obstacle will be finding different recipes or finding new ways to re-invent current recipes to suit my new lifestyle. I'll post them on here as I go, that way if you all feel like trying something new or jumping on the healthy bandwagon you can do so!
I know I've wanted to try the Gluten and Dairy free way of eating before, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. Now, I can't bring myself not to. I just can't. I'm unhappy, unhealthy and something has to change. Nothing can change, though, if I don't change myself. I have less than a week to prepare, and I'm going to make the most of it.
What is something you would like to change for an overall better you?
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Hey, there
I hope you all haven't given up on me yet! I haven't blogged in over a month and it's been crazy crazy crazy since I've last written. There have been finals, those took up most of my time - had to study my toosh off for those. Even had a surprise final that wasn't on the class schedule!
Anyway, enough about school. I've been holding steady at 230, but I feel like crap. I haven't been eating clean, and I can definitely feel it. Even my husband has made a comment about how he liked it when I ate clean because the meals at dinner were more creative, yet simple and always really good. So we will be going back to that. Without the stressors of school, it's been much easier to get back into the swing of things. Also, we have my sister's kids three days a week in the evenings so they keep us going!
The warmer weather is nice. I wish we could get some good storms in, maybe this weekend. The cats aren't liking the heat though. It feels nice in the house at around 75, but the cats are covered in lots of fur so they hide in the dining room under the fan where it's cool. It's only going to get warmer! Maybe I'll take them in and get them shaved. They'll look funny, but they'll feel better!
Gotta get going, hope you all have a great day!
Anyway, enough about school. I've been holding steady at 230, but I feel like crap. I haven't been eating clean, and I can definitely feel it. Even my husband has made a comment about how he liked it when I ate clean because the meals at dinner were more creative, yet simple and always really good. So we will be going back to that. Without the stressors of school, it's been much easier to get back into the swing of things. Also, we have my sister's kids three days a week in the evenings so they keep us going!
The warmer weather is nice. I wish we could get some good storms in, maybe this weekend. The cats aren't liking the heat though. It feels nice in the house at around 75, but the cats are covered in lots of fur so they hide in the dining room under the fan where it's cool. It's only going to get warmer! Maybe I'll take them in and get them shaved. They'll look funny, but they'll feel better!
Gotta get going, hope you all have a great day!
Monday, April 8, 2013
train keeps rolling
Guys, I'm so out of it these days. I need to get on the bandwagon of going wheat, gluten, dairy and nut free, but it hasn't been happening. I also did something to my abs because they hurt every time I move.
I'm broken, I swear.
I need to just do it, ya know? The train is rolling and I need to hop on that open car. It seems as if everyone is where I'm at, which is kind of comforting. You know what they say, it's nice to feel like you aren't alone. Relatability.
What I really need is some inspiration. To journal again.
To live.
What are you doing to get back on track? What train car are you hopping onto?
I'm broken, I swear.
I need to just do it, ya know? The train is rolling and I need to hop on that open car. It seems as if everyone is where I'm at, which is kind of comforting. You know what they say, it's nice to feel like you aren't alone. Relatability.
What I really need is some inspiration. To journal again.
To live.
What are you doing to get back on track? What train car are you hopping onto?
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
new adventure
Yesterday sucked balls. And this past weekend? Oh, geez. I won't even go into details about my weekend. I'm so glad I don't have to relive the last 3 days over like the guy from the 5th (?) Hellraiser movie. Yowza. (Wasn't it only one day for him? I can't remember.)
Anyway. Enough of that. I'm embarking on a new adventure. I have a skin condition (Keratosis Pilaris) and did some research on it. Turns out, it is the result of food intolerance to wheat/gluten/dairy. Possibly some others, but I can't afford the testing. Those are just the biggies. So guess who's rearranging their life to eliminate all things containing those items?
This girl.
I'll also be cutting out nuts and soy. There are only two things I can eat in this entire house. Insert long, loud, dramatic sigh here.
There is a plus side to all this, though. Not only will I be eating better, my skin will clear up and I'll feel great. It really is true what they say, eat crappy and feel crappy.
A trip to the store is in order! I really, really, really hope this is worth it.
Are there any foods you're allergic to or intolerant of?
Anyway. Enough of that. I'm embarking on a new adventure. I have a skin condition (Keratosis Pilaris) and did some research on it. Turns out, it is the result of food intolerance to wheat/gluten/dairy. Possibly some others, but I can't afford the testing. Those are just the biggies. So guess who's rearranging their life to eliminate all things containing those items?
This girl.
I'll also be cutting out nuts and soy. There are only two things I can eat in this entire house. Insert long, loud, dramatic sigh here.
There is a plus side to all this, though. Not only will I be eating better, my skin will clear up and I'll feel great. It really is true what they say, eat crappy and feel crappy.
A trip to the store is in order! I really, really, really hope this is worth it.
Are there any foods you're allergic to or intolerant of?
Monday, March 25, 2013
happy birthday!
If today is also your birthday, Happy Birthday to you! :) Today I have so much to be thankful for. My beautiful friends and family who have been there for me and continue to be, I love all of you! Also, I'm still weighing in at 225. This means that I'm 35 pounds lighter than I was this time last year. To me that counts for something even though I've not lost any weight in a months time.
I used some of my school money to order a treadmill (nothing fancy or expensive, I don't have the money for that!) and have planned out my couch to 5k running schedule. I'm so excited to get started! Here soon I'll be looking online for 5k runs close to home that I can do this summer. I never thought I'd be excited about running. I was always the person who said I'd only run if I were being chased by a bad person. Crazy how things change.
Anyway, short post and quick update just so you guys don't think I've fallen off the face of the earth. Even though the earth doesn't have a face, that's the moon ;) I hope you all have a beautiful Monday!
I used some of my school money to order a treadmill (nothing fancy or expensive, I don't have the money for that!) and have planned out my couch to 5k running schedule. I'm so excited to get started! Here soon I'll be looking online for 5k runs close to home that I can do this summer. I never thought I'd be excited about running. I was always the person who said I'd only run if I were being chased by a bad person. Crazy how things change.
Anyway, short post and quick update just so you guys don't think I've fallen off the face of the earth. Even though the earth doesn't have a face, that's the moon ;) I hope you all have a beautiful Monday!
Monday, March 11, 2013
changes
Had a BUSY day yesterday. I didn't think the pile of homework was ever going to disappear. It did. I didn't get to weigh in yesterday, but this morning put me at nothing lost, still at 225. I had a week that was very much up and down the last half. I had blogged I was doing good, and I was, but it didn't last. So this evening I'm going to work on my vision board and get a plan going. I feel so awful and even so, I don't want to give up on myself. I know I can do this, and I knew it wasn't going to be easy, and I need to keep reminding myself it will be worth it.
I just need to figure out something that will work best for me. Maybe a list of trigger foods that I know I should avoid all together.
I guess I'll be doing some research as well. What a Monday this is! Hope you all are having a wonderful start to your week!
I just need to figure out something that will work best for me. Maybe a list of trigger foods that I know I should avoid all together.
I guess I'll be doing some research as well. What a Monday this is! Hope you all are having a wonderful start to your week!
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Makeover Week
Did you guys watch the makeover show on Biggest Loser? Gah! I love that part of the show the best. It's always amazing to see everyone be rewarded like that for their efforts - and then to go home and have it be a big surprise to everyone! Love, love, love it.
I told myself I wouldn't, but at the hairdresser Monday I chopped all my hair off. Over 7 inches. Ouch! I straightened my hair before I went to see what kind of shape it was in, and not so good. When you don't get even a trim in over 6 months, it really does a number on your hair. So I am starting over. I'll get a trim every couple of months, and not have a "cut" until I have enough to donate again.
I've been doing well with healthy eating this week. It's great to be back on track. Hopefully it shows on the scale the end of the week. I know this was short, but I have lots to do. Just wanted to check in with all you lovelies! Have a happy hump day! :)
I told myself I wouldn't, but at the hairdresser Monday I chopped all my hair off. Over 7 inches. Ouch! I straightened my hair before I went to see what kind of shape it was in, and not so good. When you don't get even a trim in over 6 months, it really does a number on your hair. So I am starting over. I'll get a trim every couple of months, and not have a "cut" until I have enough to donate again.
I've been doing well with healthy eating this week. It's great to be back on track. Hopefully it shows on the scale the end of the week. I know this was short, but I have lots to do. Just wanted to check in with all you lovelies! Have a happy hump day! :)
When you feel like giving up, remember why you started.
Friday, March 1, 2013
Back!
Hello my sweet lovelies. I've been gone for a while and soooo much has been going on. We had snow, lots and lots of snow. Almost 20 inches. That was hectic. Driving to work the day after getting 14 inches was interesting. I'm not used to so much snow! Let me just say, people in my town drive like crazed lunatics in just an inch of snow, you can imagine my horror getting out in it with as much as we had. I'd have felt safer at home.
My sister had emergency surgery. She's fine, now, but man what a scare. So the hubs and I had the kids this past weekend. My house still isn't as clean as it was, but homework has been piling up and that's more important than putting crayons away. Well, it's my excuse for being lazy :)
Also, I fell off the wagon. Sort of. Last week and the first part of this week had me at a 7 pound gain, and I only got back on track yesterday. I tell you what, that shit is SO HARD. Learn from my experience, starting over is a bitch. One who deserves a bat to the face.
I thought about just skipping the whole gain conversation, but for those of you out there who really do read this blog, I wanted to be honest with you. Shit happens, but it's not the end of the world. We fall, but we get back up, ya know? That's okay. It really is.
I just finished up a ton of homework I started after getting home from grocery shopping. We got our tax returns so I got me a couple books, a couple magazines, and an iTunes card. I've been obsessing over Carrie Underwood's song Two Black Cadillacs, as well as Kasey Musgraves Merry Go Round. Carrie's song is so dark - I like it! It screams to me "I'm a book, and I need written. Get on it!" Kasey's song reminds me of the small town I grew up in. I'll never go back there. Ever.
I did most of my homework today instead of tomorrow because tomorrow the hubs and I are going to go uptown and look around in the shops. Surprisingly there are some I've never been to, as well as some new ones I didn't know where there. I'm hoping to get some really good deals on movies at the pawn shops. At Walmart today I picked up Stand by Me and Interview with the Vampire on clearance. Yes, please! Oh, and you know for a fact I'll be going to the used bookstore to see what kinds of goodies I can find!
Well, I'm going to go download some music and see if my Vampire Diaries episode is on Hulu yet. I leave you with some pics from the snow storm we had.
My sister had emergency surgery. She's fine, now, but man what a scare. So the hubs and I had the kids this past weekend. My house still isn't as clean as it was, but homework has been piling up and that's more important than putting crayons away. Well, it's my excuse for being lazy :)
Also, I fell off the wagon. Sort of. Last week and the first part of this week had me at a 7 pound gain, and I only got back on track yesterday. I tell you what, that shit is SO HARD. Learn from my experience, starting over is a bitch. One who deserves a bat to the face.
I thought about just skipping the whole gain conversation, but for those of you out there who really do read this blog, I wanted to be honest with you. Shit happens, but it's not the end of the world. We fall, but we get back up, ya know? That's okay. It really is.
I just finished up a ton of homework I started after getting home from grocery shopping. We got our tax returns so I got me a couple books, a couple magazines, and an iTunes card. I've been obsessing over Carrie Underwood's song Two Black Cadillacs, as well as Kasey Musgraves Merry Go Round. Carrie's song is so dark - I like it! It screams to me "I'm a book, and I need written. Get on it!" Kasey's song reminds me of the small town I grew up in. I'll never go back there. Ever.
I did most of my homework today instead of tomorrow because tomorrow the hubs and I are going to go uptown and look around in the shops. Surprisingly there are some I've never been to, as well as some new ones I didn't know where there. I'm hoping to get some really good deals on movies at the pawn shops. At Walmart today I picked up Stand by Me and Interview with the Vampire on clearance. Yes, please! Oh, and you know for a fact I'll be going to the used bookstore to see what kinds of goodies I can find!
Well, I'm going to go download some music and see if my Vampire Diaries episode is on Hulu yet. I leave you with some pics from the snow storm we had.
This was at work. The snow fell down in chunks.
My back yard during the first snow fall.
"Fall down seven times, stand up eight."
Thursday, February 14, 2013
Happy Love Day
My husband and I don't have any plans for tonight. Neither of us really like celebrating Velentine's day. You should show the person you love just how much you love them throughout the whole year, make them feel special and do nice things for them on multiple occasions, not just today :)Not that there's anything wrong with celebrating today, because there isn't! I will admit, the card he had my niece and nephew help him make for me was the sweetest fucking thing ever. I've got it displayed proudly on the fridge <3
After being sick all last week and the beginning of this week, my workout this morning was a lot harder to get through. Man oh man, was it ever. I could feel my muscles burning. I'll get another one in tomorrow morning, then hopefully get some walking done this weekend. Maybe :) I feel like I want something new for working out so I might checkout some videos when we go shopping tomorrow. I had at one point in the past gotten a dancing video by Julianne Hough, but it's a bit more advanced than where I'm at right now. I'm saving it for later. Ooooh, maybe a yoga DVD, that would be pretty sweet! And I can't wait to get some extra money next month because I'm SO ready to get me a treadmill and start running - slowly at first, maybe just wogging, then jogging, then running - but I'm ready for it! And to think, I used to be the person who said I would never run unless someone was chasing me lol Gotta get good for the Color Run and the Zombie Run. Especially the Zombie Run. They're faster than you think! ;)
I guess I better get my day officially started. Have some homework to do today. Hope you all enjoy Love Day!
Do you have any sweet plans for today?
After being sick all last week and the beginning of this week, my workout this morning was a lot harder to get through. Man oh man, was it ever. I could feel my muscles burning. I'll get another one in tomorrow morning, then hopefully get some walking done this weekend. Maybe :) I feel like I want something new for working out so I might checkout some videos when we go shopping tomorrow. I had at one point in the past gotten a dancing video by Julianne Hough, but it's a bit more advanced than where I'm at right now. I'm saving it for later. Ooooh, maybe a yoga DVD, that would be pretty sweet! And I can't wait to get some extra money next month because I'm SO ready to get me a treadmill and start running - slowly at first, maybe just wogging, then jogging, then running - but I'm ready for it! And to think, I used to be the person who said I would never run unless someone was chasing me lol Gotta get good for the Color Run and the Zombie Run. Especially the Zombie Run. They're faster than you think! ;)
I guess I better get my day officially started. Have some homework to do today. Hope you all enjoy Love Day!
Do you have any sweet plans for today?
Monday, February 11, 2013
Cups by Anna Kendrick
I absolutely LOVE this. Anna Kendrick is so awesome, and this?
I. Must. Learn. This.
So this week I'm going to make sure that ALL my homework is done by Saturday,
then Sunday I'll be doing nothing but practicing this.
Cups by Anna Kendrick
Original song:
When I'm Gone by Lulu & the Lampshades
Sunday, February 10, 2013
I don't hate mondays. . .
This weekend has sucked. Oh, man, has it sucked so bad. Yesterday was a family get together sans the parents since they're in Texas, and it was awkward, I felt like I didn't belong, and all I wanted to do was leave. I felt like crying the entire time I was there, but since it was family I put myself and my feelings aside to celebrate my sister's birthday. (It was actually days ago.) Just thinking about everything yesterday makes me sad and I want to move forward from it - I'm so done.
Anyway . . . Last night and today I did all my homework. Just have more and more to do tomorrow. This coming week I'll apply for the Health Information Technology program and the week after I'll setup an interview. This is all so exciting and scary at the same time. I won't know if I am going to be accepted into the program until after this semester is over. Talk about suspenseful!
Weigh in today was a pleasant surprise - down two more pounds! :) I'm close enough to Onederland that I can smell it. When I'm a few pounds away I'll be close enough to taste it! It's weird, in a way, to imagine myself there. My husband has never known me under 200 pounds. So since I'm an emotional one, I'll probably cry when I reach my first huge goal of 199.
But that goal is still a little ways away, so I shouldn't be counting my chickens before they hatch!
What big goals have you set for yourself? What goals have you set that you've reached?
Anyway . . . Last night and today I did all my homework. Just have more and more to do tomorrow. This coming week I'll apply for the Health Information Technology program and the week after I'll setup an interview. This is all so exciting and scary at the same time. I won't know if I am going to be accepted into the program until after this semester is over. Talk about suspenseful!
Weigh in today was a pleasant surprise - down two more pounds! :) I'm close enough to Onederland that I can smell it. When I'm a few pounds away I'll be close enough to taste it! It's weird, in a way, to imagine myself there. My husband has never known me under 200 pounds. So since I'm an emotional one, I'll probably cry when I reach my first huge goal of 199.
But that goal is still a little ways away, so I shouldn't be counting my chickens before they hatch!
What big goals have you set for yourself? What goals have you set that you've reached?
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